Monday, September 5, 2011


A few months ago my in laws invited Brian and I to join them on a ten day New England cruise. At this point Claire was only a couple months old, and I thought for sure come September, I would feel beyond comfortable leaving her while we went on a little trip. Well here is September and let me tell you I was SO wrong. I keep having anxiety attacks about not how Claire will do with out me (Because Claire is not clingy at all. We like to say she is 9 months going on 15 years. She is almost too cool for us most the time. She turns away when i kiss her! Rude right? ) but how I will do without Claire. Bah! Not only am I terrified of being without her, I HATE HATE HATE flying. Please refer back to THIS previous post to understand this insanely irrational fear of mine. I just don't know what I was thinking. Well it's too late now, and we're going. So to help me cope with my insanity, the doc hooked me up with some sweet meds. Thank the heavens! With out them I may have had to fake some insane flew or throw myself down the stairs, braking my legs, to get out of it. Luckily I didn't have to resort to either of those. However, I am beyond bummed to not get to be with my pretty little girl for two weeks. I will be counting down the minutes until I get to be with her again.